Waking at 5.

*BEEP*!!! sound of the alarm....awakens me
=( I gotta camp in front of the college hall like really early because there will be like dozen student queuing in front of the main door... but i look the surrounding in the dark...given me an goth inspiration and sadness but behind the sadness i can feel peace and beauty, as i looked above the stars and turn around in circle~
i never felt so free before the chilly air flowing around me makes me feel so...
free...as if i am flying~

The Dawn has awaken and i looked up the sunrise... never taught KL would have a nice beautiful scenery... the concrete buildings made everything looks different and weird... making me wonder....if only i could share this piece with you... if only i have you... ~

Colours.

"Everyone hold your color pencils and start using hatching" says Miss X.

I always looked at myself, wondering what color should i label myself? i think its light blue and black. Everyone seem to have better color then me with their cheerful personalities. Maybe i should take a brush and paint myself black to camouflage myself from the face on earth?...I think that my heart is colored black.

- Black Heart -
Why? i think it's black?
Because i don't deserve to be loved or to fall into one...
it always hurt me deep inside i hope one day i could just tear the colored paper away and smudge them with black paint..one day i will do it...one day...

Bleeding Stars.

I wonder why Kuala Lumpur doesn't have any stars on the sky when the day turn to dusk.... maybe its because the stars are hiding from the pain?....

The Stars are bleeding , while i dream about holding your hands....
why can't you just disappear from my mind or soul...Get Out from me....

Oh! shiny stars guide me with your inner sparkle, throw me a sign, give me light to brighten this hazy path.

I am bleeding inside...In the dark, in the haze...guide me through...give me light.

I need Light to brighten my day. at least a little.

Break the Jar.

I am gonna break the ice by saying...this is my personal diary called the cookie jar.
i will be posting about the days i am going through day by day...

I am currently going through my diploma right now and this diary of mines will give me ideas and inspiration of my coming assignments or artworks.

I will also post lyrics that i have written through different emotions from my visual diary.

I named this Blog Cookie Jar because it describe me in a jar trying to break free from suffocating.


by Satoru~