The Uncertain

I always taught being the limelight will always be good but I just realise that not everything is easy the stares that was given to me , were just lusting of human soul.
I am tired of faking myself to be strong, to act ignorant and just wanting to break down.

I am working & studying really hard right now, and this I should be proud. People might see me as someone who have all the confidence in the world or just plain ignorant, but they don't know that I weep in the dark, just to release this uncertain feeling to stay strong. I cannot break down, if I do. I will lose everything that I have succeed in life.

It's really hard to stay strong in a clouded past and a painful present, It's really really hard. Maybe I am still searching for a way out inside the cookie jar, maybe I need to cry really hard just to release this pain. Which road should I take. I hope that a shiny star could light up the silent night.